I know I'm not the only one...

     So, I turned 30 on the 30th of December 2014. Yipppeeee! Not really. I found myself wondering what would I do next. I wondered why I hadn't accomplished more in my 20s. Why didn't  I see and experience more things? The truth is, I still don't know. I won't say that I didn't want to turn 30, that would imply that I intended to die prior to the age or found some sort of Benjamin Button thing that would keep my in my 20s, but I definitely was not looking forward to it. I didn't even know how to celebrate it or if I even wanted to. "Luckily", I got sick a few days prior and didn't have to bother with the whole ordeal. I know I'm not the only way who has had such feelings. Especially, being a woman. Emotions run high on some things.

Anyway, here I am 30 and under accomplished. Under achieved. Under. Under. Under.  I was suppose to do so much. I always thought I would have, at least, one child before 30. I feel like now is too late. I don't want to be the "assumed" grandma at my children's events. I was under the siege of cacophony of sounds and visions of loss and my long list of shoulda, coulda, woulda's. Now, as I look over the bric-a-brac that makes up my 20s, I am so glad to be done with it. Good riddance 20s! Hello to the potential of my 30s. I had to pull out a more positive outlook because things were looking dire. I would not want my creator to believe me to be ungrateful for all that He has brought me through.

Although, I am not one to believe that "30 is the new 20" or any nonsense like that, I do believe that greater things lie ahead of me. Am I the only one? I may be a wee bit more wise than I was in my 20s. I did a host of stupid things during those times. Many of which I am now ashamed, but turning 30 has given me a clean slate. I think. I guess I won't walk off any jobs in my 30s or burn so many bridges that I can not see for the BLAZE! Oh, how glorious was the blaze though. I miss setting, figurative, fires. It can still happen in this decade. 

I just want more clarity in all things, be better in all things. Love more. Be nicer to people, for I was not nice to a lot of people. In my mind, they did not deserve my kindness and deserved what they got, but that's not how things work. I'll try to live the Golden rule more. I will do unto others…I think. A friend of mine called it, the Golden birthday, so I guess y'all can call me Jill Scott. 

#OprahBeKnowing

    So I don't often indulge in the OWN network. Most of the time I can't find the channel when I want to watch something on there, but I do like to catch the Life Classes every now and again. I was watching one night and this statement was made "You get out of life what you are bold enough to ask for." Now to me this statement is profound, but not profound at the same time. I mean surely most of us know that we can speak things into existence or speak of things as if they were already so. When I heard this I let it linger in the front of my mind for a while, turning it over and over to see what it meant to me and for me. I let it marinate and told myself I would come back to that at a later date. Today is that day and what better day than NYE. 

   The New Year entails so much for all of us. So much promise. Clean slates. Another chance at that failed thing you didn't do last year. Most of the time we make weak resolutions as to what we MIGHT like to happen in the upcoming year. Honestly, I don't think we believe half of the stuff that we put out into the atmosphere. We say things that we don't mean all the time such as, "If you need me call me", knowing good and well you have your fingers and eyes crossed hoping that they never call. Shaking my head. We have to do better. I implore you to release that "lying spirit" in the new year. Rebuke it in the name of Jesus! 

  In this New Year, let's realize that our resolutions involve a little something called WORK. You can't just say "I want to lose weight", you have to work to lose it. It will require some sweat and probably some tears because, unfortunately, it won't be easy.

Sorry. Oh, you say you want to stop smoking? Great! What's the plan? What work do you plan to do to make that happen? As the good book says, the harvest is plenty, but the workers are few. We can not expect things to fall in our laps like that. We have to sow in order to grow. I complained most days about the job I have currently, but what am I doing to get out of that situation? What have I done to change it? Nothing thus far. Absolutely nothing. I'll be leaving that "complaining spirit" behind and those who possess it.

    I believe we are capable of receiving the things that we ask for, but we need to know that those things come with responsibility. Let's not make promises to ourselves, and others, that we know we won't be able to keep past midnight tonight. At some point you have to be all in for the change you want to see. A friend of mine does this thing called a "Want List" for the year. It's basically a list where you put some things that you would want, self explanatory really. Below I will show you a few things on my want list. Wants require work also, in case you did not know. If you want it you have to grind for it. You have to take the necessary steps my friends. There is no way around it or under it. What are you boldly asking for in 2014???

My want list 2014 as of now (Some things could be added or subtracted):

Better Relationship w/GOD

Even Better Attitude

More Compassion

Career

Twins( It can happen and I don't mind the work it entails…*wink wink*)

MacBook Air (For all my writing needs)

Trip to Nappa Valley

Trip to Jamaica

Random Trips

Dresses Galore

30lb weight loss

etc…

My Resolution: Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Happy New Year Everybody, let's do 2014 right!